Pam

11:35 am: uuuugh being back at school SUCKS.. i can't wait for this semester to be over.... oh yeah but then i start school again on my birthday...

so something i left out about NY... there were unisex bathrooms at the club.. how weird was it to be walking to a stall and see a guy takinga piss.... ewww hahaha

i need a car... know anyone that selling one for cheap let me know!

IT'S FREEZING OUT! when is spring gonan get here??

jill u need to add me to your friends list of your LJ...

10:00 pm: NYC
just got back from NYC.. good times but i am SO tired... we got up at 6:15ish on friday i haven't seen that early since my one day of bootcamp! we spent the day looking for purses on canal st.. sooo many shady people. we didn't really have any luck until this really shady guy brought us in this real shady store and there were soooo many.

so that night we went to the club avalon.. it was alright it was mostly techno except for one room... Michelle almost got kicked out for drinking... just think she didn't even drink at the beginning of the year... me and maryanne are her downfall hahahaha... there are absolutely NO remotely attractive guys in NY not one. and the only guys we talked to at the club were not from this country.. a few from paris, one from london, another from australia.. none from the US.. oh well no good looking guys anyway

to anyone i might have made a drunken phone call to that night i'm sorry hahha

so definately a good weekend.. i will go back but i could NEVER live there.. people are so rude and it's so dirty i feel like everytime i went inside i wanted to shower.. and the sales tax there is 8.695%! that's crazy! boston is more my kind of city..

i'm EXHAUSTED! goodnight!

09:04 pm: yeeeah soo i spent $200 at the mall today.. but i LOOOVE everything i bought..


so me jill and marissa saw something reeeal shady today.. kinda a guy bashing day haha

10:37 pm: i love my friends!
This was ashley's away message:

Everything happens for a reason..

Knowing you have a friend who is greater than the world itself is the most amazing feeling in the world. You know you've made that friend when you feel the same pain they feel, and would do anything in your living power to change their life around. You've picked me up off the ground and made me soar through the sky, and you know i would do the same for you. Pam, i love you with all my heart and no one can understand me like you do.

I love Ashley! and all my other friends!

guys are DICKS.. not worth anything u go through

life is too short to be anything but happy..

12:02 am: gotta love drunk friends
Brianw37: haha do u remember when ur roomate called me
Pam697: lol u want her to call u again?
Brianw37: haha i dunno where my phone is
Brianw37: is she smashed
Pam697: noooo
Pam697: she is sober but she wants to do u
Brianw37: WHAT
Brianw37: really
Pam697: yeah u need to walk here
Pam697: NOW
Pam697: she can't drive she has no legs
Brianw37: waht
Brianw37: no way girls don't like me
Pam697: she saw a picture and her exact words were "DDAAAMN who's that kid?"
Brianw37: pam stop egging me on
Pam697: bri.. i'm not
Pam697: but she has no legd
Pam697: legs... is that gonna be a problem?
Brianw37: no problemo senora
Pam697: she has huge boobs though
Brianw37: hahahhaha stop kidding me
Brianw37: i'm gonna go to bed all exctied
Pam697: LOL
Brianw37: have i ever met ur roomate
Pam697: i don't think so
Pam697: wouldn't u remember a girl with hugeboobs and no legs?
Brianw37: ur porlly right
Pam697: she has a hot pink wheel car
Pam697: chair
Brianw37: ok i kno w ur lying
Pam697: why?
Brianw37: i have an ucle in the whheelchair biz and htey don't sell hot pink weheelcahirs
Pam697: yeah they do
Brianw37: theyu don't even make them
Pam697: her dad painted it for her
Pam697: u dont' even have an uncle in the wheelchair biz
Brianw37: thats wicked illegal, she better ho[pes no cops pull her over in it
Pam697: why is it illegal
Brianw37: she'll get arrested
Brianw37: it promotes unsafe sex and illegal drunks
Pam697: because her wheelchair is hot pink?
Brianw37: yes
Pam697: well that could be true because she is a nympho and is drunk almost all the time
Pam697: she brings a water bottle of vodka to class
Brianw37: she is the man
Brianw37: thats awesome

09:12 pm: Yeah Chicopee.. rough start to the season but stilling winning! Good Luck at States!

11:55 pm: sugga sugga how'd you get so fly???
i had an EXCELLENT weekend besides feeling sick to my stomach for a good majority of it..

tomorrow i have so much planned. just a bunch of errands really but it should be fun.

tuesday- pizza hut buffet, finding nemo,and voting yaaay! and my mommy leaves for texas.. i have to pick her up late thursday night but i don't mind.. i hope i get a keychain or something!

02:26 pm: embarrassing moment of the weekend:

being one of the first people out of the movie theater only to roll my ankle then twist it walking down the stairs so i fell on my face but kinda on my side.. YIKES probably the most embarrassing thing that ever happened in public. i couldn't stop laughing after it happened. my ankle hurt today though. oh well nothing serious.

all of a sudden i have this motivation. since i've been back i organized my drawers, cleaned our food shelves, did the dishes, taken out the trash, and tonighti'm gonna vacuum and swiffer our room.. wow i'm impressed

12:59 pm: i have a major!
i have a major now! yay! biology. a little scary i know but that's what i want to do. and i dropped a class. history of massachusetts, i didn't need it and i HATED it. oh well.

03:14 pm: i had a pretty good weekend but i was sooooo sick sunday morning.. i guess those girly drinks really do do a number on your stomach. oh well. it was freinds and family at work so i got a new pair of brown boots and a very cute hat that i LOVE. and i bought a printer at target that print scans and copies yaay but don't have a cord to hook it up. oh well i will get one.

so i havent been going tothe gym and i went like everyday last year so i'm definately gonna start to go again..

03:01 pm: my hair won't curl anymore! i ironed it too much... what am i supposed to do now?? ugggh

so all througout history i kept thinking about what classes i'm gonna take next semester and if i want to transfer or not.. i feel like i'm wasting my time cuz i have no idea whati want to major in.. uggh

11:29 pm: YAAAAAAAAAY! RED SOX WON!!!!!!

06:51 pm: i'm soooo full!
I ate SO much today. me and jill went to atkins and bought a dozen apple cider doughnuts, a loaf of pumpkin bread, a half a peck of apples, jill got a carmel apple, and i got a little pumpkin for 204. yaay i love atkins. mmmm i made apple crisp today soo good. gotta love food hahaha

i just visted erica at work and lost on a $2 scratch ticket. booo and the red sox are losing at the top of the 8th.. booo

yaaaay for having the weekend off.. i haven't been able to just hang out is soo long. hanging out with the girls tonight probably cuz i NEED to get out of here cuz bud is in a bad mood!

09:36 am: I HATE LIMITED TOO
so last night was the night from hell at work! we hada floorset uggh. let me just tell you about it...

*first off floorsets are supposed to be on sundays not thursdays because we close at 6. so i had to deal with customers until 9:30

* i got there first so i get to pick what wall i wanted to do so i pick it and obviously out of EVERYTHING we have in the store i have 7 of the 20 shirts i need to fill my wall.

* we had a girl transfer from another store SLOWEST GIRL EVER she took ann night to do a wall when i got about 4 done

* then ltd2 decides to put camis in the wall so i had to figure out how they were all going to fit so i had to take everything out of the wall when i was on the ladder. so i grabbed a bunch of stuff and stupid me turns my wrist the wrong way and i feel it snap yep started to turn black and blue right way GREAT

*so the new girl has no idea where to park so i drive her to her car.. there was a car following us the whole way there and when we go there he car was broken into.. great so i'm scared shitless at this point. her pyscho b/f was like stalking her! uggh

*AND I miss friends which was supposed to be a classic episode and the Red Sox game and they lost cuz i wasn't watching hahaha

*gotout of work at like 1:45 back here for like 2:05 only to find out the shuttle wasn't running so i had to walk back by myself when it was late and freezing

NOW I HAVE TO GO FAIL AN A&P EXAM!

04:08 pm: stolen from a few people..
My name is: Pam
In the morning I am: sleepy and sometimes grumpy
All I need is: i have everything i need
I'm afraid of: ghosts (204 courtney = haunted), falling, and being hurt
I dream about: i dream of the weirdest things...

-W I T H . T H E . O P P O S I T E . S E X-

What do you notice first?: definately eyes
Last person you slow danced with: no gonna lie i don't think i slow danced since my senior prom :( ... and that would be with matt
Worst question to ask: at work i HATE asking if someone wants to open a charge

-D O . Y O U . E V E R-

Sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. you?: nope can't say that i do
Save AIM conversations: i used to
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: hell no, thanks to dave talking about the weirdest things i've EVER heard.... hahaha

-W H O . W A S . T H E . L A S T . P E R S O N-

You talked to on the phone: my mommy
Hugged: michelle cause she was sad..
You instant messaged: jilly
You laughed with: maryanne
Kissed: thurman

-D O . Y O U-

Color your hair: highlight
Ever get off the damn computer: yeah but school i'm on a lot
Habla espanol: un poco

-D O . Y O U / / A R E . Y O U-

Smoke cigarettes: eeeeew no
Obsessive: I hope not
Could you live without the computer?: yeah
How many people are on your buddylist?: i had 200 a few days ago but i deleted people i don't talk to so i canmake room for more!
Whats your favorite food?: why discrimate?? i love food hahaha
Whats your favorite fruit?: i looove fruit.. all kinds
Drink alcohol?: would i ever???
Like watching sunrises or sunset: to be honest..i never have
What hurts the most? i'm clumsy so i get hurt a lot
Trust others way too easily?: yeah but i'm working on that

-N U M B E R-

Of times I have had my heart broken? : 2
Of boys I have kissed? : quite a few
Of girls I have kissed? : zero.. however there was a rumor about me and erica new years 2001
Of times I have moved? : 1 time but only like 5 miles away
Of tight friends? : I have enough.. they are the best!
Of cd's that I own? : not that many andthe ones i do are bad haha
Of scars on my body? : a few.. it goes back to me being clumsy

I KNOW: i don't want to go to work..
I WANT: to get out of work before 2 a.m.
I HAVE: half of a turkey sandwich yet
I WISH: i could take back some of my mistakes
I HATE: studies of african lit
I MISS: my cat
I FEAR: didn't i already answer this?
I HEAR: nothing. cuz michelle is sleeping - but does that suprize you??
I SEARCH: for answers
I WONDER: if i'm making the right decisions
I REGRET: nothing
I LOVE: you know if i love you!
I ACHE: my elbow hurts cause i kept hitting it last night
I CARE: about a lot of things
I AM NOT: stupid
I DANCE: haha in 341 last night
I SING: only when michelle's not here cuz she is much better than me
I CRY: when that mean lady yelled at me the other day
I DO NOT ALWAYS: do my homework.. ooops
I WRITE: papers
I WIN: in beirut that night at nicoles house
I LOSE: and lost the same night damn it
I CONFUSE: a lot of people
I LISTEN: to people talk
I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: 204
I NEED: my car back
I AM HAPPY ABOUT: a lot of things
I SHOULD: go to work...

01:49 pm: so me and nicole have been so good about this gym thing. we have gone every day for the past week even when both of us wanted to take naps. i definately feel better about myself and i'm losing weight!! yaay! and neither of us have eaten bad either. this is one plan that i acctually have faith in! and if it's not raining too bad i'm gonan run tomorrow morning.. i'm gonna look good this summer at this rate!

matt's coming soon i can't wait to see him! he came up last night and we had such a good time even though we didn't really do anything. he had a bad day so i hope today is going better!!

i have to work tonight and tomorrow night till 10 but natalie is closing tonight so i don't expect to be out at 10.. oh well more money right?? i get paid today but my whole check is going towards florida.. it's coming a lot quick then i thought it would be!! only one month and 25 days..

09:43 pm: sooo i have been so tired lately. matt's parents are in florida so i have been sleeping there a couple days this week. it's been fun though. i like jsut falling asleep next to him. we got into a little bit of a fight tonight. it was my fault. i was in a bad mood... but i apologized and he came up to see me. he jsut left he has a ton of work to do tonight which it was fine.. it was just nice to see him!

so me and nicole have this whole work out plan... little charts and everything.. haha i'm gonna be skinny before i know it..

i bought two bathing suits today and together they only cost $30! i was pumped. i put the girl in one of them as my background so everytime i'm on my computer i think of how skinny she is!

03:03 pm: stolen from kel!

Time:: 304 PM
Name:: Pamela Lynn Butler
Do you Like it?:: sure it's not bad
Nicknames:: Pam, Pammy, I answer to anything
Birthday:: June 7, 1984
Crush:: Matthew
Height:: 5'7
Birthplace:: springfield, ma

[Favorites]

Color:: any color blue
Month:: june
Season:: summer
CD:: one of my mixes
Movie:: annie, pretty woman
Sport:: depends
TV Show:: hmmmm

[This or That]

Coke/water:: water
Day/Night:: night
AOL/AIM:: aim
Jeans/khakis:: jeans
Car/truck:: car
Lunch/dinner:: dinner
Silver/Gold:: gold
Alchohol/weed:: alcohol

[Love and Relationships]

Do you have a BF/GF?:: Matt
Who was your first love?:: umm first true love - Matt
What do you miss about them?:: He's still mine

[The Past]

What is the one thing you would've changed about your past?:: doesn't really matter..
What is the biggest mistake you've made in your life?:: falling on my head in cheerleading
Last thing you heard:: the bus drive away
Last thing you saw:: battle of the sexes on mtv
Last thing you said:: "see ya"
Last thing you read:: this question
What is the last CD you heard?:: good charolette i think? my roommates music
Who was the last person you laughed with?:: nicole
Who was the last person you were on the phone with?:: matt

[The Present]

What are you wearing?:: jeans and a black tank top
What else are you wearing?:: umm a thong a braand sandals
Who are you talking to?:: no one right now
What song are you listening to?:: i have no idea...
Where are you?:: in my dorm room
Are you online?:: yes
How are you feeling?:: good but a little tired

[The Future]

What day is it tommorow?:: saturday
What are you going to after this?:: probably down the hall
Who are you going to talk to?:: nicole and maryanne proabably
Where are you going to go?:: didn't i jsut answer this?
How old will you be when you graduate?:: 22
What is one of your dreams?:: being happy & successful
Where will you be in 25 yrs?:: hopefully married or settled down and in a great career

[Have you Ever #1]

Drank?:: yes
Smoked?:: nah
Stolen?:: nope
Done anything illegal?:: probably
Hit someone?:: haha i got in a fight with my neighbor when i was like 10 and we slapped each other across the face

[Other]

Do you write in cursive or print?:: print
Are you a lefty or a right?:: right but it depends on what i'm doing
Do you drive?:: yeah
Do you have glasses or braces?:: glasses only for reading though

[Physical Appearance]

What do you most like about your body?:: ummmm
And least?:: leg love handles and triceps
Do you look like any celebrities?:: someone told me jessica simpson once and my dad says i look like britney spears haha
What do you notice first about a 'crush'?:: smile

[Have you ever #2]

Pictured your crush naked?:: yeah
Actually seen your crush naked?:: yeah
Been in love:: yes
Cried when someone died:: yes
Lied:: yes
Fallen for your best friend:: yes
Rejected someone:: yep..
Used someone:: not exactly
Been cheated on:: sure have =(
Done something you regret:: yeah

[Do You]

Color your hair:: highlight it
Ever get off the damn computer:: i leave my name on but i don't sit at the computer
Habla espanol:: si hablo espanol
Dance:: yep
Sing:: not well but of course i still do

[Miscellaneous]

Best friends?:: they know..
Are you obsessive?:: no i don't think so
Could you live without the computer?:: prob not
Whats your favorite food?:: tuna fish!
Whats your favorite fruit?:: red apples, bananas, clementines
What hurts the most, physical pain or emotional pain?:: emotional but my neck hurt real bad

[Final Questions]

I want:: to take a nap
I need:: get a better body
I wish:: matt was here
I love:: a lot
I fear:: heights
I wonder:: what i'm gonna do tonight

11:50 pm: I'm so lucky!
I jsut got back from the boys floor hockey game. Who know it would be so exciting? They lost but it was a terrible call.. Sorry boys! It was fun definately want to go back.

I have to best boyfriend EVER! He just left before I went ot the game and I love him so much. Get this, last night i went to take my pill at 9:30 like i always do and they weren't there and i knew i through them away. i took the trash out earlier yesterday so they were in the dumpster and me matt maryanne nicole and laura went out to see how full it was and i was like you are never gonna find them. so matt started lifting bags and sure enough there they were in 2 cvs bags! hahaha if that isn't love i dunno what is...

sooo i lost a roommate today for next year. nicole got screwed over with her housing.. damn it.. but i'm sure she will be in our room all the time anyway.. she doesn't exactly know what she is going to do yet.. damn it..

english got canceled for tomorrow i'm so excited!!

12:39 pm: Ugggh Registration
So here's my schedule for next year:

MWF 10:25 - 11:15 Computers in Eduction

MWF 12:35 - 1:25 Students with Special Needs

MW 1:40 - 2:55 Child Pysch

TTh 11:15-12:30 Schools in American Culture

TTh 12:45-2:00 History of Massaschusetts


Sooo not too bad with the times but I am probably dropping my Education major so I dunno if i'm taking these classes for no reason but oh well. It fills up some of my liberal studies core so whatever.

So my weekend started out kinda bad. It was good to see Matt but things were weird at first and we got into a little fight but after we talked about things, it was sooo much better and everything is great now. He slept here on Saturday and we jsut kinda hung out. It was fun though.

So on Friday I thought i was supposed to work so I left matt's to be at work for 6 and i got there and they were like hey what are you doing here? i was like i'm working they were like no alli is... ooops i had to work saturday night. oh well. i have to work next saturday night too. i need the money so what can you do?